If I were in your shoes, I'd take a look at what that economy of scarcity was like for me, and how I could explore it ...
My life is an economy of scarcity. I'm depressed, almost all the time. One of the costs of that is that it takes me a great deal longer to start things, simple things, like house cleaning, scheduling, deciding what to have for dinner -- darn near anything. Time is an incredibly valuable commodity. The loss of time costs money, peace of mind, social contact, sleep, hell, lack of personal hygiene. Medicated, things are much better now. It used to be that getting up off the couch and getting to work was a major undertaking, and often the only thing I managed to accomplish in a day.
I'm working on all of this, of course. The lack of sleep is probably tied in, but I don't think it's a simple psychological link. I think that there's a lot of physiological stuff associated. Seriously, 2% REM is a BAD thing. I sincerely doubt that's just because my life is a mess. That looks like bad biochemistry to me.
Of course, this leads us into the whole question of soma vs. psyche, and that gets abstract darn fast. What I know about myself is that tweaking the neurotransmitters via modern drugs has been the most effective approach. What that really means is an interesting excercise, which I leave to the reader. Me, I'm just grateful I didn't live a hundred years ago. Or even fifty. Med tech good.
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Re: To Sleep, Perchance to Dream
Date: 2005-02-11 06:46 pm (UTC)My life is an economy of scarcity. I'm depressed, almost all the time. One of the costs of that is that it takes me a great deal longer to start things, simple things, like house cleaning, scheduling, deciding what to have for dinner -- darn near anything. Time is an incredibly valuable commodity. The loss of time costs money, peace of mind, social contact, sleep, hell, lack of personal hygiene. Medicated, things are much better now. It used to be that getting up off the couch and getting to work was a major undertaking, and often the only thing I managed to accomplish in a day.
I'm working on all of this, of course. The lack of sleep is probably tied in, but I don't think it's a simple psychological link. I think that there's a lot of physiological stuff associated. Seriously, 2% REM is a BAD thing. I sincerely doubt that's just because my life is a mess. That looks like bad biochemistry to me.
Of course, this leads us into the whole question of soma vs. psyche, and that gets abstract darn fast. What I know about myself is that tweaking the neurotransmitters via modern drugs has been the most effective approach. What that really means is an interesting excercise, which I leave to the reader. Me, I'm just grateful I didn't live a hundred years ago. Or even fifty. Med tech good.