In my first sexual experiences I didn't put any emotional weight on the act. After some encounters I found myself feeling very disatisfied with that. I was unhappy that anyone could get that close to me without making an emotional connection, or without, apparently, recognizing those qualities in me that set me apart as a unique individual to love and cherish - even in preference to other individuals. It distressed me to realize that I had trusted my most vulnerable feelings to anyone who had little vested interest in my lasting happiness and well-being. I felt that I'd acted as if I was less than the whole person I am, let myself be treated as less, and that I'd done little better by the others involved. I was mistaken. I try not to repeat my mistakes.
I realize that not everyone (it seems hardly ANYone I know) feels the same about these things. But, there ya go. If I run into any rich men who want to hire a wife, I can see about introducing you.
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Date: 2005-02-11 07:36 pm (UTC)I realize that not everyone (it seems hardly ANYone I know) feels the same about these things. But, there ya go. If I run into any rich men who want to hire a wife, I can see about introducing you.