The speech

The speech went well today. I was too wedded to my script, and didn't look up enough, but I got through it without any disasters. I didn't lose track of the slides, or lose my place on the page. I sent my slides to the teacher yesterday, and got an email this morning that said that the slides looked to be well thought out and well organized. That was a nice boost. It could have been a better written speech, but not by me. I just barely made it through.

I did get to practice my speech. Yesterday, eileenlufkin took me out to lunch, and then came back to the house and let me practice my speech on her. Let is the wrong word, here. She suggested it. While I was doing that, marsgov called to buck me up. It's good to have friends.

I'm back on Trazadone. A day or two before the panic hit, I had stopped taking it. It was prescribed to me as a sleeping aid. I didn't think it was doing anything, so when I ran out of it, I just didn't refill it. My basis for thinking it wasn't doing anything was that I had run out of Lunesta, a proper sleeping pill, the month before. For the couple of days before I got the prescription refilled I tried taking just the Trazadone. It didn't help me sleep at all. So I had a reason to stop the Trazadone. I called my doctor the day before yesterday to ask if stopping the Trazadone could be the reason for the anxiety attack. The nurse said that she didn't think so, but talked to my doctor. My doctor said that if that's the thing that you changed, then you should go back to taking the Trazadone and see if it helps. So, I took my first dose again last night. I've been feeling incrementally better since last Thursday, but today I felt nearly normal. So maybe it is the Trazadone, for all that it's not supposed to cause reactions like that. I'm not inclined at the moment to experiment and see if it happens again. It was downright uncomfortable.

So now I just have to study for two finals. Just. I have this trick of learning things for the test, but forgetting them afterwards. So I have to relearn an entire semester's worth of stuff in order to take the finals and succeed. Not possible. Hopefully as I review things will come back to me. I'm really quite nervous about the tests, for all that I test well. I haven't been testing well in these classes. So both of the finals are next week on Thursday. I have a week to prepare. Plus I have one homework assignment that I'm finding tough that I have to do by Saturday. I guess that means I do it tomorrow.

Life could be worse. And has been, quite recently. Wish me luck on the finals.