lydy | Progress Report

So, I ran out of Buproprion about 5 days ago. I don't seem to have had any reaction to withdrawing from it. This is pretty much as I expected. I'm still on Trazadone, but at half the dose. I feel ok. So I should probably be able to withdraw from it successfully. Which will mean that for the first time in like 20 years, I will be medication free. From financial necessity, not sense of any sort. I feel pretty much like I have in the past few years, so I guess the drugs haven't been doing me any good for a while.

I think I'm still depressed. I sleep 12 to 16 hours a day, when I can. I don't get excited about anything. I have no energy. I basically play around on the net and read books. Not productive. Occasionally, when there are any, I apply for jobs. That's not going well, either.

I think that things would pick up a bit if I had a job, but maybe not. It's hard to say, what with not having one. There aren't tons of jobs out there, so there isn't oodles I can do to find one.

Any rate, running out of drugs didn't turn out to be the catastrophe that I thought it would be, so that is good. I should probably do something about getting state covered health care and try and treat the depression. So much work, though. I know, I know, that's not a good excuse.