I've been wrong about my nephew's family

[lydy]

I've written a bit about my nephew who is in jail. My assumption, incorrect, was that his fammily largely abaondoned him. This is not the case. They visit and write to him and are aware of his religious position. It is much more positive than I assumed. I should not have taken silence to mean disinterest. My sister has never been willing to discuss her kids with me, partly because I've always assumed the worst. I've been written a very sharp note by my sister, as you might guess. So to set the record straight, my nephew is getting lots of support from home. I shot off my mouth.

In other news, I'm having a panic attack about school. It started with a speech I still have to give. I thought I had to give it last Thursday, and was not ready for it. I was so nervous on Thursday that I threw up -- a new thing for me. I've never been that nervous before. As it turned out, I was able to delay it to this coming Thursday. But I've been in a state of raw panic since then. I don't feel like I can manage the rest of this course. I don't think I'll be able to pass the finals in the two courses. I have a knot in my stomach all the time.

I'm not doing well. Things will go better. They always do. But at the moment, things are not so good.

Comments

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

It doesn't make sense in that you can't write out step a and step b and therefore any rational person would have the same reaction.

But it makes emotional sense to me. You can't be that scared of something without having the scared spill over on things related to it.

I hope getting through it goes as well as possible.