Bad news

[lydy]

Two bad things happened to me on Thursday. The first was a car crash. I tried to take a left hand turn against oncoming traffic that I did not see. I smushed the car kinda good, and the airbags popped out. I may have totalled the car. I did a really bad number on the other guy's car. His entire front end got shattered, and there were fluids leaking. No one got hurt, which is a blessing. This is bad on a number of fronts. Just killing the car is bad enough, but David had gone to a certain amount of trouble so that we would be a two car family so that I could get to clinicals next semester. They're unlikely to be busable. Now we may be a one car family again. This also affects Pamela and Eric, who use the car for errands and to go on hikes and so on. It's a really big deal. I've never wanted to take something back so much in my life.

The second bad thing was that I flunked clinicals. I've been misplacing electrodes. I am no good at talking to the patient. I really question whether I can do this job or not. I'm to stay on evenings, instead of going to nights, and try harder. I've been having trouble finding the inion, which is where the skull bumps out, not the notch where the spinal cord goes in. I've also had a certain amount of trouble marking my measurements correctly. I used to be good at this. I don't know what's wrong.

So, I'm pretty disconsolate.

Comments

[guppiecat]

When I had my accident (sadly, people were hurt in that one, some of us permanently), I remember that I kept trying to force my eyes open to wake up from what was clearly a nightmare. (It didn't work.)

All I can say is that it will all eventually be OK. I'm sure that the car issue will be worked out, and that you'll figure out the clinicals. The thing to watch is to make sure that the car stress doesn't make the clinical work more difficult. Try to segment, if you can.