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lydyTwo bad things happened to me on Thursday. The first was a car crash. I tried to take a left hand turn against oncoming traffic that I did not see. I smushed the car kinda good, and the airbags popped out. I may have totalled the car. I did a really bad number on the other guy's car. His entire front end got shattered, and there were fluids leaking. No one got hurt, which is a blessing. This is bad on a number of fronts. Just killing the car is bad enough, but David had gone to a certain amount of trouble so that we would be a two car family so that I could get to clinicals next semester. They're unlikely to be busable. Now we may be a one car family again. This also affects Pamela and Eric, who use the car for errands and to go on hikes and so on. It's a really big deal. I've never wanted to take something back so much in my life.
The second bad thing was that I flunked clinicals. I've been misplacing electrodes. I am no good at talking to the patient. I really question whether I can do this job or not. I'm to stay on evenings, instead of going to nights, and try harder. I've been having trouble finding the inion, which is where the skull bumps out, not the notch where the spinal cord goes in. I've also had a certain amount of trouble marking my measurements correctly. I used to be good at this. I don't know what's wrong.
So, I'm pretty disconsolate.
The second bad thing was that I flunked clinicals. I've been misplacing electrodes. I am no good at talking to the patient. I really question whether I can do this job or not. I'm to stay on evenings, instead of going to nights, and try harder. I've been having trouble finding the inion, which is where the skull bumps out, not the notch where the spinal cord goes in. I've also had a certain amount of trouble marking my measurements correctly. I used to be good at this. I don't know what's wrong.
So, I'm pretty disconsolate.
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Date: 2009-11-22 04:55 am (UTC)human bodies are complicated. i remember when i went from dolls to actual bodies, and man, nothing is in the right place! and it takes time for fingers to learn, and working against that was the mostly unconscious fact that i was touching strangers, and didn't want this to be icky or interminable for them, and that very shyness then of course screwed things up even more. and i had several bumps there, where i got worse before i got better. it was frustrating.
can you practice more on friends, maybe? where you can slow things down and maybe figure out why you're less good at this now?
sorry you're having such a miserable time of it at the moment.