I hate one-sided conversations

[lydy]

I don't particularly like being yelled at, either. But, you know, into every life a little yelling must fall. What I have very little tolerance for is being hectored and being unable to respond. I put up with as a child because, you know, child. And at work, of course, one allows one's boss to yell at one, and if one is smart one normally just listens. But in personal relationships? Even strange, crazy, toxic ones? My toloerance for it is less and less as time goes by.

So, you know, I got this as a LJ message from Louie:

markiv1111 (from 75.72.194.152)

September 26 2013, 01:00:27 Local Edited: September 26 2013, 01:19:15 Local link Collapse Delete Freeze Screen Track Edit
Lydy responded to a post I had made ;my very first ever post in LJ back in August or early Sept. 2012. when it was all the rage to harass me for posting there, even though Nate had given me his express permission. Her post began:

" You know, Louie, every time I try to like you, even a little bit, you post something like this, and I get mad all over again."

It was my first ever LJ post, I think, , and both that fact plus the bizarre concept of 'trying to like' somebody made her stand out as a person who doesn't consider her choice of words before she publishes them here. Trying to get along, I can see, but liking comes from affinity, and that should be effortless and natural.

I can guaran-damn-tee you that she is not making herself any easier for me to like, and I did consider getting to know her better just because Nate seems to care to about her. Her sententious ramblings and detailed analysis of my behavior at the MinnStf meeting on last Sat. was so patronizing, so uncalled for, and so inaccurate that I found it laughable at first. But the implications that she is willing to get this kind of picky icky detail at a time when things are so utterly difficult already blows my mind.

I have had more than enough from her. She will be banned soon. Either that or I will decide that the signal to noise ratio is all wrong and just stop reading and posting completely.

have done nothing wrong; I was a model of good behavior, and I get this crap from her? Just because she can, and I find that hateful. My beef about Nate's behavior at the meeting was a legitimate one, between Nate and I, and she should keep her snout out of it, as she was part of the problem, not a neutral observer.

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I would respond to her in the same fashion, except that she's blocked me. Which, you know, is fine. It's just that I don't particularly like being in a position where I can't respond if I want to.

While I have many different thoughts about this latest oddness, here are my top two:

1) This might be mildly concerning if I thought that she had sent it to someone whose good opinion I value. However, as far as I know, we don't have any mutual friends left. So, kinda not worried.

2) If she thinks that what I posted about the Mnstf meeting was a detailed analysis, she understands neither the word detailed nor the word analysis.

Comments

[kaffy_r]

Thinking of you, and many others; and I am very sorry to see all this, even at my extreme remove.

[lydy.livejournal.com]

I am sorry too. I am sorry that so many people have gotten hurt, in a large variety of ways. I'm not all that happy that I'm one of them, of course, but other people have been hurt much worse.

[markiv1111.livejournal.com]

You, sorry? I'd like to see that, I really would. That would almost be worth all the trouble you've caused with your pointless venomous nannerings.

[lydy.livejournal.com]

And how, exactly, would I show that to you since you refuse to believe anything I say? In point of fact, my emotions about this situation and you in particular are complex and layered. But sharing that with you doesn't seem like a winning strategy.