So, I lasted almost a month.

[lydy]

Or as Vampire Willow would say, "Depressed, now."

Now I've got to follow through on a number of plans I devised when I was sane. Been there, done that, but you know, I don't remember nearly so many typoes. Aphasia's worse, too. Bah. I see my shrink on Wednesday.

Meanwhile, DDB is all in heaven because he got a new router and downloads are much faster, and many other things, but at this point I have to bow out, saying "motorcycle motorcycle, parts, parts, parts.)

Comments

[jiawen]

Take care of yourself.

[dd-b.livejournal.com]

Hey, *you* were the one complaining about the old router!

[marsgov.livejournal.com]

Ok, I need a new router/firewall to replace the SMC barricade I currently have. Suggestions?

[dd-b.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm so far very pleased with the Linksys WRV200; it's one of their commercial units (cost $10 more than the home model), and has useful features like VPN endpoint (and comes with client software), VLAN, multiple SSID (I'm running a low-bandwidth public network for friends who come by, so they can get out the Internet), and rather better firewall capabilities. It is, at least, a big step up from the home units for very little extra money.

But I wasn't really studying the firewall capabilities particularly, so if you have heavy demands in that area, I dunno. I hardly touch it myself (NAT does the bits I care about, so long as anti-IP-spoofing is on in the router).

[marsgov.livejournal.com]

I tried looking around to see how it handled the NAT/server issue, and came up with some of the lowest-rated product reviews I've ever seen. I'm reviewing the reviews right now; your personal recommendation carries a lot of weight, but I'm nervous.

[dd-b.livejournal.com]

And none of *them* seem to have actually done anything with the firewall part either.

It's absolutely true that it reboots the router insanely often (each time you save a page of data; and if you don't save on that page, it's lost) when configuring through the web interface. That's not bad for making a quick change you know how to do, but it's annoying when first learning the system and doing stuff over and over.

Weirdly mixed opinions on the VPN! I haven't used it yet; I'll have to do some special config to be able to reach it from the wired outside locations.

I'm still tempted to to do some rewiring so I can use the *physical* DMZ port (achievable by config, not hardwired) and so it can be my outside router (just ignore everything in the actual DSL modem/router; configure it to pass everything to the IP of the Linksys inside).

It's been much more stable than the previous WRT45G -- but it had fallen on its head a few times (getting pulled off a computer case by a long cable; we've solved the long cable problem, the new router is velcroed in place, so with luck that won't happen again).

[kip-w.livejournal.com]

Almost a month lasted in what? I'm missing something here, and it sounds like I need to know. Maybe.

[lydy.livejournal.com]

Almost a month feeling cheerful and productive. Almost an entire month of feeling better than I've felt since I was nine years old. Almost a month of feeling like what I think of as being human. Not quite a month, not quite.

I feel much better today, so maybe I'll have a quick rebound. But I've been afraid of a crash ever since I started feeling good. I had a week or two of manically high wonder on Serzone, which of course, they took me off. That was a bummer for me, but no one else, I was bloody insane. But god, it felt good.

The future is unknown. We'll see how it goes. My most recent Chinese fortune cookie said, "Your life is kaleidoscopic." Well, no shit is my thought.

So, we'll see. As I tell myself repeatedly, "Next year, the med tech will be better."

[papersky.livejournal.com]

Only a month? Your brain isn't kind to you. *hug*

[redbird]

You're doing a good job of finding and fixing the typos; this may be small comfort, but it's true and useful.

Good luck with the shrink finding something helpful.

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, dear. Plans devised good, and all that. Let me know if a hand would be useful.

[marsgov.livejournal.com]

Well, it was fun for me while it lasted...

I will contact you via IM to discuss the information/interview that I need to arrange for you.

[huladavid.livejournal.com]

For what it's worth, I've been there, and it...

Aw, geez... I can't think of anything to say that'd even a glimmer of help. It's hard to believe it, and a lot of times I didn't, but you're strong enough to make it. Doesn't take away from what it's like now, but...well, where you're at now isn't forever.

[lydy.livejournal.com]

I tell myself, "The med tech will be better next year." It doesn't exactly help with the present, but I do find it gives me reasons to hang on with my fingernails and toenails.

[laurel]

Well, crap. And I don't mean the new router!

[bibliofile.livejournal.com]

Cool, you got a whole MONTH! Many happy returns, and I mean that literally.

It seems that the shrink appt. is well timed, at least. Please keep us posted.